autumn thinking...

its starting to feel like fall again- and as much as i love fall, its so bittersweet because summer is ending so quickly... and it always throws me off when school starts. i guess because i spent so much of the significant years of my life in school, i get this odd feeling like i'm not done yet- i'm not ready to be an adult. i should still be in high school, college, sometimes middle school (6th grade really was a fun time). i know its not all its cracked up to be- those were difficult years and i probably spent more time crying than laughing, but something about fall brings me back... it sort of pains me when i see the kids in my neighborhood walking to the high school. it could also be my irrational fear of aging that catches up to me when i realize that i don't belong there anymore.

but i do love the crispness of fall, and the cider, apples, sweaters, new boots, tights, dresses, orange and yellow leaves, birthday presents. honestly just too many things to count. husband and i spent the past few days enjoying our small little town and our little home together. last night i made this mediteranean humuus from a pasta sauce i had bought at the farmer's market (sounds weird once its written out, but it was fab, i promise), and sat outside around our little firepit table eating it with a fresh loaf of italian bread (also from the market), and drinking this great orange wheat beer. tonight we had a great dinner (courtesy of me- top chef that i am), and then went for a nice little bike ride to visit my mom and sister and show them my new hair color.

sometimes i worry about revealing too much about myself on this thing- or through twitter, or facebook. i'm the type to just trust people and then start talking... but how much information is too much? clearly we're a nation/culture that loves personal information... i have to confess, if john mayer were to send out a play-by-play tweet of his day, i would probably scroll through and read every one of them (when i had time, of course). and this blog seems to be a hit among my friends- and if they were to write one, i would of course read it all the time. people say they don't want to 'twitter' because no one would care about their life- but people do care. how many pictures do we look at on facebook, usually of a friend-of-a-friend? acquaintance at best, i suppose. it's such an odd world we live in- one that is getting more personal, but usually on our own terms. maybe that's a better way to live? and hey, i maybe blog about my newly married life, but i don't have 2 camera crews following me around while i learn to change the paper towel holders and question the branding of 'chicken of the sea.' (i own that dvd series. and i still love it. in my mind they are perfectly happy together).

anyway, off to bed- it's only monday but i have a feeling this week will be a long one!